Do you ever feel like forever isn’t enough? Like you could literally have eternity but you would still want more, you would still think that isn’t enough. I know our human brains can’t really grasp the idea of what eternity is but still, we can imagine something that is pretty damn big and endless and that idea is good enough. I literally have anxiety over time that I don’t spend with someone because I know I can’t get that back and that we are just that much closer to being dead. And that those were seconds we missed together and will never have. When you find someone you want to spend the rest of your life with, it makes you realize how short the rest of your life really is. I totally understand where people are coming from with the whole life your live to the fullest thing. When they say appreciate every moment because it could all be over tomorrow, they are right. That’s how I live now. Half scared of losing it all and half happy that I get another second with the people I love.
I hate missing people. It is like a big, fat, gapping hole in your being that just grows and hurts and doesn’t go away even when you are with them because you know you will have to leave them again. It is a never ending lonely feeling, a feeling of loss and anxiety. It is like a wound that doesn’t heal, a cancer of the heart.
Live life on YOUR terms.