Me.
Hey Guys! Im Brittany, Im 24 from Virginia. Thanks for stopping by my blog :) This is a place where I post things that inspire me, things I just like or love, and sometimes I might ramble about my life haha. Comments welcome.
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May In A Nutshell
- First time going to Gold Cup, was pretty fun I guess. Lots of drunks, hot weather, Lots of rich ass snobby assholes, and the horses were cool, traffic sucked though (2 hours trying to get out).
- Nokesville Day. Pretty cool actually. Lots of country folk and tractors. I got the best BBQ ever and at least got to smell the kettle corn.
- Getting kicked out. Super fun and unexpected. You cant live one place but then you go to another place and think you’ve got a year to figure things out, then they change their minds 3 months in.
- Lots of work. Work all the time. Work.
- The Gynoooo. First experience verdict..not as bad as sissy bitches made it sound.
- Birth Control! Finally. but it sucks. I feel sick all the time.
- House hunting and moving. An exciting adventure into adulthood. I like it.
- 401ks, loans, bills, and other financial adult things. All very confusing and ridiculous but unavoidable.
- Rolling Thunder. Lots of motorcycles, food, and interesting people. A good time.
- 8 month anniversary. Small drop in a big empty bucket but it feels like a long time and its been such a journey so far.
Do you ever feel like forever isn’t enough? Like you could literally have eternity but you would still want more, you would still think that isn’t enough. I know our human brains can’t really grasp the idea of what eternity is but still, we can imagine something that is pretty damn big and endless and that idea is good enough. I literally have anxiety over time that I don’t spend with someone because I know I can’t get that back and that we are just that much closer to being dead. And that those were seconds we missed together and will never have. When you find someone you want to spend the rest of your life with, it makes you realize how short the rest of your life really is. I totally understand where people are coming from with the whole life your live to the fullest thing. When they say appreciate every moment because it could all be over tomorrow, they are right. That’s how I live now. Half scared of losing it all and half happy that I get another second with the people I love.
I hate missing people. It is like a big, fat, gapping hole in your being that just grows and hurts and doesn’t go away even when you are with them because you know you will have to leave them again. It is a never ending lonely feeling, a feeling of loss and anxiety. It is like a wound that doesn’t heal, a cancer of the heart.
“You asked about caring for people I don’t even know. But can I tell you the thing I’m learning most with this disease? The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in. Let it come in. We think we don’t deserve love, we think if we let it in we’ll become too soft. But love is the only rational act.”
(Source: ancora-imparo)
“Everything becomes a little different as soon as it is spoken out loud.”
(Source: ancora-imparo)
“One may tolerate a world of demons for the sake of an angel.”
“We tend to judge others by their behaviour and ourselves by our intentions.”
(Source: skyedivee, via tessaviolet)
